vegan guilty secrets

well it won't be a secret any longer but I have now got a new vegan guilty pleasure... pana chocolate! amaze, raw, organic & handmade with no nasties, all natural (& also pretty pricey from the organic shop) but it is well worth it for the sweetness & such savouring moments of delicious desire when one is scoffing! 
& I'm thinking it will help me get to 50k's tomorrow - eek indeed. 
I've have had a pretty rubbish week due to someone I care about being honest about an aspect of their life that I just can't accept, I have been emotional, affected & unmotivated. I also feel like I've let myself down but I've tried my best this week & have managed 2x yoga classes & 2x PT sessions + have ran at least 5 k's everyday. Except today I just couldn't get out of bed at 6.30am on a Saturday morning in the dark. I still got to yoga which helped me stretch my tired limbs & I'm not going to dwell on it I'm just going to set myself up for a bigger challenge tomorrow. 
Tomorrow I'm going to go for 5 hours!!! But incorporating a run/walk method to help with my recovery & see where I'm at in ultra fitness world. I'm also going to take food to see how I'm going to fuel the big race. I've been in a bit of denial that I'm going to run 100k & that relationships are all that they seem, now I'm going to transmute out of these mindsets with some zendurance practice.
Some amazing reading that has inspired me over the past couple of months that connect the mind & body & are helping me to reach the point of enlightenment & ecstasy when I run...

The runners guide to the meaning of life - Amby Burfoot
Eat & run - Scott Jurek
Running with the mind of meditation - Sakyong Mipham
Zendurance - Shane Alton Eversfield
The power of now - Eckhart Tolle
Born to run - Christopher McDougall
What I talk about when I talk about running - Haruki Murakami 

Happy reading & running & peaceful peeps xox